For the last couple of months, I have honestly sucked at keeping up with this blog. Hell, I still have a beauty quiz up from June. It's been hard to have all these creative ideas only for logistics to get in the way of them ever surfacing. I have settled in on a routine here at college, which is a huge relief given that I was scared shitless to be on my own. I still kind of am, I'm scared that something to going to come up and demolish my routine. One thing I can say for sure is that I am going to do a look this week. I have all this pent up creative energy because all I have been doing is school work, which just always appears boring no matter what. It's been depressing actually. So, for the sake of my emotional health, I have decided I need to make time for this blog because I feel excited about what I'm doing here. I have been on top of my assignments but that doesn't make them any more exciting. Although I am really happy with the classes I'm in, they are all writing and digital media focused. Two areas where I know I want my future job. Maybe a journalist or a podcaster or creator of some other form of media product. Still, the workload is not light and even though I've been told I'm a great writer, writing for my classes hasn't exactly come naturally. I also started here with a lot of social stress. I felt like everyone had immediately clicked up and I was kind of on my own. Getting through that first week was tough but I eventually met some truly amazing people. I don't have a gaggle of crop top wearing, fake tan having girls with the bleach blonde highlights and a collection of racy photos hidden on their VSCO. Okay I sort have that last thing, but it's not the worst thing ever and mine is pretty chill with the raciness. Anyway, what I do have is a small collection of quality people. Life is too short to have 30 "besties" but almost no real connection to them. I'd rather have three and build up a special connection with them. I don't want to jinx it but I think college is going to be great. Especially if I can get my shit together and put in the effort on this blog, and of course my health. I am trying to keep up with it but it's hard when I'm not exactly sure what my priorities are. Should I stay next door and try to make a couple of new friends so I don't come off as a crazy shut-in, or leave early without telling anyone why and go home to do nebs? Everyone says I'm so good but the truth is I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing.
Maggie
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