Saturday, July 3

I'm backkkk! I've been super busy the last couple of months and I really don't get many people reading this anyway but I made it my goal this week to write because I haven't done it in forever and I love it so much. I don't even know where to start. So much has changed. It's so hard to keep up with the blog when I have school and now work. That's right guys I secured myself a spot in the salon for once I graduate. I am so happy right now. for the first time in my life, things are completely falling right into place. I'm super overwhelmed with graduation coming up soon and then the state board. That being said, I have great friends, an incredible boyfriend, the beginning of what is shaping up to be an amazing career, and of course for the first time ever really, I am healthy. Yes I have very intense diabetes and my liver is in rough shape but I am alive and things are pretty beautiful right now. I'm hoping that I will get back into writing more once I graduate and have a little less on my plate because I do truly love it. For real though, I am a true 180 from where I was a year ago. I wanted to die and I didn't think the world was even worth being in anymore. But I can say it was worth giving it another try. It took everything in me to pull myself out of it last year when my world fell apart but somehow I did it even in a pandemic, now I know I can handle anything. It's incredible the strength you can find when you dig deep. Sometimes, I just cry. Not about anything in particular and not because I am sad but because not only did I survive CF nearly killing me, I then survived a terrible clash with my own mental illness right on the heels of almost dying in the hospital, I was at my worst and somehow got back up and turned things around and not just around, I became my best. I have learned so much and I can't wait to see what life has in store next!