Sunday, April 17

Hey guys! Wishing everyone a happy easter! So much has been going on and I wanted to sort of vent it out and give everyone the update. I went into the hospital for my first cleanout since trikafta. I have to say I felt awful when I finally decided I had to go to the ER but not nearly as bad as I used to when I needed IV antibiotics. I knew I would eventually need some more impatient, Trikafta is a treatment not a cure. and hey if I have to a weeklong cleanout every 2.5 years for the rest of my life, I can live with that. After all, it's way better than what my life was like before. I had a little pneumonia in my lungs, and it was kicking my ass. Honestly, I think I am pretty lucky given all the crazy shit it could have been. I can't complain really, I found a job in a salon I love, went back to college and have a 4.0 GPA, found an amazing group of friends, met the man of my dreams and the love of my life, even started seriously doing art again. Plus, I have this blog where I can create and write as much as I want. My family relationship has finally calmed down quite a bit as well. I feel that we are closer than ever, and they have really become my backbone lately, not to mention the fact that they adopted my soon-to-be fiancé as their own. Okay, so he isn't my fiancé yet, but he will be very soon. Now if I could just get my diabetes under control life would be pretty perfect. I have been trying to stop being so hard on myself about that though. I have started to focus on the small wins I do accomplish. I am doing the best I can even if my numbers aren't perfect, and I need to praise myself for the small wins like taking my long-acting and going out to new doctors for a second opinion. I never gave myself even a bit of credit for all that. Changing my mindset is really helping. Plus, all the healthy, low carb dieting I have been doing. I find it is sort of intermittent as I still indulge in certain things with insulin that maybe aren't the best for me, but I am trying not take anything away from myself. I found it is way easier to just start adding more healthy food to my diet then take away my favorite things completely. Plus, I have found so many new things I love! I want to start posting recipes, but I find I haven't been cooking as much as I want too lately. I was thinking my first thing would be a quinoa bowl, but I want to come up with the recipe on my own so it's probably going to be quite the project. Anyway, I hope everyone is also thriving out here right now. Let's keep it up ya'll!